Sometimes you begin to reflect on things (people) in your life when they are not necessarily going well. A thought that maybe you deserve this unwanted behavior and/or offended someone to which in return you feel worthy of such unruliness. Why do we voluntarily accept the blame for actions/words/responsibilities from those whose life is clearly in a more deficit state then your own? Hmmm.
Has there ever been in a time in your life when you thought that extending a helping to a loved one without announcing your intentions, with the hope that it will be received with gratefulness and appreciation? Only to be cursed for not doing some unexpected deed? Have you ever extended a helping to someone you thought knew you well enough to really know your intentions? Only to learn that the person really doesn't know you at all (or maybe has not accepted it because they are not where they should be).
I believe that I am there and have been for some time. It has gotten to the point where I really should know better. I really should make a life change for myself and not allow such nonsense. But sure enough, I find myself back in the rut again! Accepting what is out of my control and taking responsibility for what it none of my business.
An affirmation is what I need. A statement to remind me to accept the things that I cannot change, the knowledge to know what belongs to me and the wise counsel to know my purpose.
Have you ever prayed for help in correcting a behavior? Only to find that you really may not know yourself as well as you thought simply because you are always trying to help others with their issues. Losing self in the process. Wow, I do.
I have to learn to stay in my place and learn what it is to change my life. To expect to receive the ultimate outcome that I truly desire. Maybe what I have always dreamed of. I need to let go of those things that may be holding me back from even dreaming. When was the last time I dreamed of something? Not sure I've been busy helping someone else.
Today I am making a stand! For change (a personal change). That sounds difficult. I found a link that looks like a sure thing to get me on the right path to making a difference in my life that will affect other lives. I'm game! ;-)
